From Mantra Crystals

8/3/05

I’m writing this on 8/4 but I worked on this mantra (crystal) all day yesterday (8/2). M and I visited the old Potters Wheel house on Morrissey and got real spun out about my life and personality in the past. By the time the day was over I was sinking in a swamp of self-centered stories, trying to figure out how to get back into clean awareness in present time. The kicker was I was projecting a lot of judgement, anger, and blame towards her. At that point this slogan popped up for me, as it often does when I find myself being real critical of her. It’s an obvious opportunity for what has proven to be an extremely effective slogan.

The “one” that you are driving all blames into is self-cherishing/clinging/grasping. That’s what’s causing all the problems. The slogan uses the self-cherishing energy which is engulfing and entrapping you to turn back on itself and dismantle itself. By hołding the slogan  all day long, while we did an incredibly beautiful hike in Henry Cowell State Park, I was gradually transitioning from a very stinky ego trip through an awareness of the problem that immediately shut down its external manifestations, into a process of internally dissolving the offending arising obscurations. All this with no external communication of what I was doing.

The day just got better and better. When the thought would arise to take credit for it, it would be met with the slogan, which was a reminder that  even though there was no blame happening yet, any arising of self praise would start the cycle again so just let it go.

It gave me a little bit of a headache a few times but it was way more than worth it.